My bf visited my place today with some of his pals. All was cordial and friendly and sweet. It had to be coz' my parents were home.
I realized I didn't have the urge to hug him or hold his hands like before. I realize I moved on :) I could actually be with him like I am with my other guy pals.
He asked me how are my sales going...and if anyone "unknown" had bought anything. He blatantly mentioned in front of his friends that till now my customers/buyers were people known to me, which means they are buying only to encourage and if someone unknown buys only that will be an "achievement". Well, all of his friends told him right then, that he is discouraging me. And according to him he is just giving me a "reality check". Only one of his friends agreed to that, who himself is messed up in life apparently. It was tiny bit uncomfortable and yes, discouraging.
But, yes it does'nt matter to me much. What he says, does'nt matter. What he thinks, Does'nt matter!
Just a tiny bit hurt 'coz I loved this guy for so many years.
He is not a bad person but just so negative all the time. It seems he has no passion, no spirit for living life freely and positively and happily. He's extremely Melancholic and I don't even know why!?
He has otherwise a great sense of humour and is fun and has a good heart but he's just pulls me down.
I was blind in love and ignored such instances like today for all these years but right now, especially 'coz I'm taking this step to be independent and be my own boss....all I need is positive energy...!
My mom's already there to worry and be non-risky, and thinking-to-much, and Not living life to the fullest...I just don't need another loved-one like that and give me such so-called "reality-checks" which just means "Negative thoughts"!
His friends apparently do not believe that we are over and because he wanted to surprise me today (but couldnt 'coz one of his friends updated it in fb)...I think he is still hoping or believing that I will be back with him. But I won't! Coz we are not meant for each other!
'Coz I believe in Karma and Magic!
And I know that by the end of this year, my account balance will say around 5,00,000/-
So, He and Me? We were truly, madly, deeply in Love but now I know that we grew apart and so, its better we be "Just Friends"!
I realized I didn't have the urge to hug him or hold his hands like before. I realize I moved on :) I could actually be with him like I am with my other guy pals.
He asked me how are my sales going...and if anyone "unknown" had bought anything. He blatantly mentioned in front of his friends that till now my customers/buyers were people known to me, which means they are buying only to encourage and if someone unknown buys only that will be an "achievement". Well, all of his friends told him right then, that he is discouraging me. And according to him he is just giving me a "reality check". Only one of his friends agreed to that, who himself is messed up in life apparently. It was tiny bit uncomfortable and yes, discouraging.
But, yes it does'nt matter to me much. What he says, does'nt matter. What he thinks, Does'nt matter!
Just a tiny bit hurt 'coz I loved this guy for so many years.
He is not a bad person but just so negative all the time. It seems he has no passion, no spirit for living life freely and positively and happily. He's extremely Melancholic and I don't even know why!?
He has otherwise a great sense of humour and is fun and has a good heart but he's just pulls me down.
I was blind in love and ignored such instances like today for all these years but right now, especially 'coz I'm taking this step to be independent and be my own boss....all I need is positive energy...!
My mom's already there to worry and be non-risky, and thinking-to-much, and Not living life to the fullest...I just don't need another loved-one like that and give me such so-called "reality-checks" which just means "Negative thoughts"!
His friends apparently do not believe that we are over and because he wanted to surprise me today (but couldnt 'coz one of his friends updated it in fb)...I think he is still hoping or believing that I will be back with him. But I won't! Coz we are not meant for each other!
'Coz I believe in Karma and Magic!
And I know that by the end of this year, my account balance will say around 5,00,000/-
So, He and Me? We were truly, madly, deeply in Love but now I know that we grew apart and so, its better we be "Just Friends"!
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